I have this empty feeling in my heart right now. It almost physically hurts. I had a pretty sweet day at work...I mean about as sweet as things can get at work...I came home passed out for an hour and now I feel like the Grand Canyon...expect emptier...why do our moods change so quick? Jimmy Eat World is forbidden from no on. no more emo music. SHIT!!! I can't believe how shitty I feel right now. It totally sucks; it's almost laughable how much it sucks. Fuck. I need a distraction REALLY bad; I need to stop thinking about things. Today's the best day ever...hmmmmm. laugh at the world. things always work out for me... You can do it Derek. You have been here before, get over it. I'm going to see nowhere boy...alone. Fitting.
